Tuesday, December 27, 2005



Silence supports the situation
and tries to save it from Me
Big Mug of whiskey iz in my nees
These shallow fears are increasin !!!

Uncertanity izz like a master to me
Foggy, mornins,sunlightstill betyars me,conspiring to create a mystical History.

Since childhood I stand
like a lonely tree and keep
observin the old Big Massive Mansion
of the old King where his Kids used to frol...
Well, it's about time.

Astriction iz the award in this spot

I live in a broken highway
In the cold night with breeze and my friend
all nite long

2 more shots of Coke !!!Then they say its a Rich Man's Play Haha hahaha LMBO

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Pain Folks

Pain Folks

It's not always what you know...

Once again I eat like a mad dick
Should i rather say ?

Wats going where
I dont ever have even a Wage idea,
they say its a sign of my insanity
they say the symptons are too
damm strong for me to be corrected NOW

Am I scared, ?
I want to hide
I dont want to come in contact with

Damm I feel the fear
The heart beats soo fast
The hands shiver again
The mind looses control

Drinking Margaritas at the Beach
Turkey cooked in a tabletop roaster
Driving a long Highway
some heavenly trips on ecstasy

Do I need to advocate these drugs NE More ?
What kind a Magic do they DOOO !!! HUUU

Another weekday hangover experience !!!

Another night of sleep iz all I guess I want
I'm on a roll of dream, trip here.
Dreams: I'm in a circular room and trying to figure out
where to put the angular HEART SHAPED BOX ...

These are some True HALLUCINATION
I fight all day and Night
Just when I thought my ability
to review couldn't get any worse...
They asks me to Criticize

I want to disappear without Fuckin trace !!!

My Incompetanance Again iz hanging naked on this Wall !!!


Wednesday, November 16, 2005

True Hallucinations

Hope these words are not cold To you

Life in Perspective

For those still learning
this puts it all into words
perfectly. I call it the "True Hallucinations "

"life Crisis."
It is when you stop
going along with the crowd and

start realizing that there are a lot of
things about yourself that you

didn't know and may or may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder where

you will be in a year or
two, but then get scared because you barely

know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish

and that, maybe, those
friends that you thought you were

so close to aren't exactly the
greatest people you have ever met and

the people you have lost touch
with are some of the most important ones.
What you do not realize is that they are realizing

that too and are not really cold or catty or mean
or insincere, but that they are as
confused as you. You look at your job.

It is not even close to what
you thought you would be doing or maybe you are

looking for one and realizing that you are going
to have to start at the bottom and are
scared. You miss the comforts of college,

of groups, of socializing
with the same people on a constant basis.

But then you realize that
maybe they weren't so great after all.
You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not
want. Your opinions have gotten stronger.

You see what others are
doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly
you realize that you have certain boundaries

in your life and add
things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are
insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of
your life. You feel alone and scared and confused.

Suddenly change is
the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon
realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there
is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do
such damage to you or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet
anyone decent enough to get to know better.

You love someone but maybe
love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this
because you are not a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting
wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go
through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with
your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a
You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for
yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd
just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that **
everyone ** reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times
and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole
thing out.

"Please dont feel bad its not you whozz to blame "

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Poor Widow !!!

Be Careful
We are into the world of stooge .

A man called SAM checked-in to a hotel In New Yark. There was a computer in his room, So he decided to send an e-mail
to his wife. However, he accidentally
Typed wrong e-mail address,
and without realizing his error, he sent the
e-mail. Meanwhile.....somewhere in New Delhi, a widow had just returned home from her husband's funeral.
The widow decided to check here-mail,
expecting messages from relatives and friends. After reading the first message,
she fainted. The widow's son rushed into the room, found his mother on the floor, and saw the computer screen which read:--------------------------------------------------------------------------

To : My Loving Wife
Subject: I've Reached
Date: 16 August 2004

I know you're surprised to hear from me.
They have computers here now,
and you are allowed to send e-mails
to your loved ones.
I've just reached and have been checked in.
I see that everything has been
prepared for your arrival tomorrow.
Looking forward to seeing you then !
Hope your journey is as uneventful as mine was...

Monday, November 07, 2005

Critic Trapped

Critic Trapped wants to talk to !!!

Once upon a time
Once upon a time,
They used to laugh with their hearts
and laugh with their eyes,
But now they only laugh with their teeth,
While their ice-block-cold eyes
Search behind my shadow.

There was a time indeed
They used to shake hands with their hearts,
But tats gone,
While their left hands search
My empty pockets.

We used to hear
“Feel at home,” “come again”,they say,
and when I come again
and feel at home,
once twice, there will be no thrice
For then I find doors shut on me.
So, I have learnt many things,
I have learned to wear many faces
Like dresses ----
homeface, cocktailface, officeface, streetface, hostface
With all their conforming smiles
Like a fixed portrait smile.

And I have learned too,
To laugh with only my teeth &
shake hands without my heart.
I have also learnt to say goodbye
When I meant good riddance
To say glad to meet u
Without being glad,
to say its been Nice talking to u
After being bored

But believe me I want to be what
I used to be When I was like you .

I want to Unlearn all these muting things
Most of all, I want to relearn
How to laugh, for my laugh in the mirror
Shows only my teeth
like a snakes bare fangs !
So show me ,How to laugh,

show me how I used
to laugh & smile
Once upon a time when I was like u.

iz that my criticism ?

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Head Trips In PipeLine

Do I Hide My Face for these Bad Dreams ?

y do i feel like a bad man
y do i feel like a sad man
y do i feel like a blind man
y do i feel like a cold man
no sights are in here
no one iz in my Room
in my dark cold room
picture on my celing iz so sad
picture on my celing iz so cold
these painted hoodlums
are 2 black and cold
these 4 walls are soo black
may be thats y where i lack
to hear those unheard voices
which i heard in my past
coz it was always rainig
in my head,

My Shadow Proves the Sunshine
My Blues prove me being in vain
My Mirror proves me being sain
If I throw a glass of water on the mirror
All I have iz a distorted image of a boy all
This proves end of the rays in my life
Doezz it ?

This Room Spins
And I am Still HIGH
I am not yet tired Of this Dysfunctionality
Young Boy"s Innocence iz still been abused !!!

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Three words !!! LIFE GOES ON ...

Described the life in 3 words


May Be
The depth of winter,made me learn that there was within me an invincible summer...

Great iz he who iz in me then the liar in the world ...My Pain was definate and cannot be Described ,They still suspect it ..

I am afraid of tommorow coz I have seen yesterday !!!
My small worries have Big Shadows !!!