Incompetant Critic

QUITE MOMENTS

2005-12-27T14:14:00.000-08:00

QUITE MOMENTS

Silence supports the situation
and tries to save it from Me
Big Mug of whiskey iz in my nees
These shallow fears are increasin !!!

Uncertanity izz like a master to me
Foggy, mornins,sunlightstill betyars me,conspiring to create a mystical History.

Since childhood I stand
like a lonely tree and keep
observin the old Big Massive Mansion
of the old King where his Kids used to frol...
Well, it's about time.

Astriction iz the award in this spot

I live in a broken highway
In the cold night with breeze and my friend
all nite long

2 more shots of Coke !!!Then they say its a Rich Man's Play Haha hahaha LMBO

Pain Folks

2005-12-07T11:46:00.000-08:00

Pain Folks

It's not always what you know...

Once again I eat like a mad dick
CHOCKLEATS, ICECREAMS, HAM,TURKEY,MILK,COOKIES, BURGERS,WINE, BEER
AND EVERYTHIN I COME IN CONTACT WITH
Should i rather say ?

Wats going where
I dont ever have even a Wage idea,
they say its a sign of my insanity
they say the symptons are too
damm strong for me to be corrected NOW

Am I scared, ?
I want to hide
I dont want to come in contact with

Damm I feel the fear
The heart beats soo fast
The hands shiver again
The mind looses control

Drinking Margaritas at the Beach
Turkey cooked in a tabletop roaster
Driving a long Highway
some heavenly trips on ecstasy

Do I need to advocate these drugs NE More ?
What kind a Magic do they DOOO !!! HUUU

Another weekday hangover experience !!!

Another night of sleep iz all I guess I want
I'm on a roll of dream, trip here.
Dreams: I'm in a circular room and trying to figure out
where to put the angular HEART SHAPED BOX ...

These are some True HALLUCINATION
I fight all day and Night
Just when I thought my ability
to review couldn't get any worse...
They asks me to Criticize

I want to disappear without Fuckin trace !!!

My Incompetanance Again iz hanging naked on this Wall !!!

I SOON SHALL BE FREE !!!

True Hallucinations

2005-11-16T11:55:00.000-08:00

Hope these words are not cold To you

Life in Perspective

For those still learning
this puts it all into words
perfectly. I call it the "True Hallucinations "
"life Crisis."
It is when you stop
going along with the crowd and
start realizing that there are a lot of
things about yourself that you
didn't know and may or may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder where
you will be in a year or
two, but then get scared because you barely
know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish
and that, maybe, those
friends that you thought you were
so close to aren't exactly the
greatest people you have ever met and
the people you have lost touch
with are some of the most important ones.
What you do not realize is that they are realizing
that too and are not really cold or catty or mean
or insincere, but that they are as
confused as you. You look at your job.
It is not even close to what
you thought you would be doing or maybe you are
looking for one and realizing that you are going
to have to start at the bottom and are
scared. You miss the comforts of college,
of groups, of socializing
with the same people on a constant basis.
But then you realize that
maybe they weren't so great after all.
You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not
want. Your opinions have gotten stronger.
You see what others are
doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly
you realize that you have certain boundaries
in your life and add
things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are
insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of
your life. You feel alone and scared and confused.
Suddenly change is
the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon
realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there
is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do
such damage to you or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet
anyone decent enough to get to know better.
You love someone but maybe
love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this
because you are not a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting
wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go
through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with
your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a
decision.
You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for
yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd
just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that **
everyone ** reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times
and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole
thing out.

"Please dont feel bad its not you whozz to blame "

Poor Widow !!!

2005-11-09T08:01:00.000-08:00

Be Careful
We are into the world of stooge .

A man called SAM checked-in to a hotel In New Yark. There was a computer in his room, So he decided to send an e-mail
to his wife. However, he accidentally
Typed wrong e-mail address,
and without realizing his error, he sent the
e-mail. Meanwhile.....somewhere in New Delhi, a widow had just returned home from her husband's funeral.
The widow decided to check here-mail,
expecting messages from relatives and friends. After reading the first message,
she fainted. The widow's son rushed into the room, found his mother on the floor, and saw the computer screen which read:--------------------------------------------------------------------------

To : My Loving Wife
Subject: I've Reached
Date: 16 August 2004

I know you're surprised to hear from me.
They have computers here now,
and you are allowed to send e-mails
to your loved ones.
I've just reached and have been checked in.
I see that everything has been
prepared for your arrival tomorrow.
Looking forward to seeing you then !
Hope your journey is as uneventful as mine was...

Critic Trapped

2005-11-07T05:25:00.000-08:00

Critic Trapped wants to talk to !!!

Once upon a time
Once upon a time,
They used to laugh with their hearts
and laugh with their eyes,
But now they only laugh with their teeth,
While their ice-block-cold eyes
Search behind my shadow.

There was a time indeed
They used to shake hands with their hearts,
But tats gone,
While their left hands search
My empty pockets.

We used to hear
“Feel at home,” “come again”,they say,
and when I come again
and feel at home,
once twice, there will be no thrice
For then I find doors shut on me.
So, I have learnt many things,
I have learned to wear many faces
Like dresses ----
homeface, cocktailface, officeface, streetface, hostface
With all their conforming smiles
Like a fixed portrait smile.

And I have learned too,
To laugh with only my teeth &
shake hands without my heart.
I have also learnt to say goodbye
When I meant good riddance
To say glad to meet u
Without being glad,
to say its been Nice talking to u
After being bored

But believe me I want to be what
I used to be When I was like you .

I want to Unlearn all these muting things
Most of all, I want to relearn
How to laugh, for my laugh in the mirror
Shows only my teeth
like a snakes bare fangs !
So show me ,How to laugh,
WONT U TEACH ME

show me how I used
to laugh & smile
Once upon a time when I was like u.

iz that my criticism ?

Head Trips In PipeLine

2005-10-26T06:36:00.000-07:00

Do I Hide My Face for these Bad Dreams ?

y do i feel like a bad man
y do i feel like a sad man
y do i feel like a blind man
y do i feel like a cold man
no sights are in here
no one iz in my Room
in my dark cold room
picture on my celing iz so sad
picture on my celing iz so cold
these painted hoodlums
are 2 black and cold
these 4 walls are soo black
may be thats y where i lack
to hear those unheard voices
which i heard in my past
coz it was always rainig
in my head,
My Shadow Proves the Sunshine
My Blues prove me being in vain
My Mirror proves me being sain
If I throw a glass of water on the mirror
All I have iz a distorted image of a boy all
This proves end of the rays in my life
Doezz it ?

This Room Spins
And I am Still HIGH
I am not yet tired Of this Dysfunctionality
Young Boy"s Innocence iz still been abused !!!

Three words !!! LIFE GOES ON ...

2005-09-21T14:29:00.000-07:00

Described the life in 3 words

IT GOES ON !!!

May Be
The depth of winter,made me learn that there was within me an invincible summer...
Great iz he who iz in me then the liar in the world ...My Pain was definate and cannot be Described ,They still suspect it ..

I am afraid of tommorow coz I have seen yesterday !!!
My small worries have Big Shadows !!!

God"s Incompetence

2005-09-01T01:18:00.000-07:00

Hi folks!

Before you decide that world is gonna be a better place tomorrow !!!

You gotta see this...

Real Side of the World
Truly Hard to Accept
This is the Other Side of the Coin...!!!

"No one in the History of Mankid could Understand Why did he made the Differances "

Totally His Incompetence...

http://www.caglar.net/coin/flash.html

Sometimes I Think
Why iz he DOING THIS !!!!!

Dont forget to post what you think ???

Dysfunctionality

2005-08-31T23:43:00.000-07:00

Tired Of This Dysfunctionality
All My Sneer IZ Here

Living in the hope that those
Unrealistic dreams come true ?

Everything began Five years back,
the summer of 1999
when 16 yr old kid
was asked to take misfortune of his Father .

The isolation started in teenage
he started on drugs,
Completely lost his existence, innocence and all he had
listing to degraded music,
and started living on there pitty,

His innocence
was played by this world
the exhausted poor guy
stood in the Punishment cell everyday
to fight his victimization
probably he"ll never find a way out
untill he"iz gone like his father.

So much happened during
those months spent
that he abandoned school
his childhood had some memories
all faded with time.

I guess his isolation years have been revised ?

His Falling was Easy
but getting back was a problem
I am now tired of this Dysfunctionality
condescending thoughts had a jaint power.

He has been Hated and Discrimanated
and allways been demonstrated !!!

He knows he had been mistaken
there have been so many imperfections

If he bends more he"ll break

Well now i have no more to say
i cant choose to walk away...
i made him commitments !!!

If His eyes are not wet does not mean he does not cry
If he iz strong does not mean nothing went wrong...

Empty Sky All Nite all Day

2005-08-25T10:16:00.000-07:00

I'm Just a Male with A Higher Mental Vibration,
Trying To Figure out my Path to this life And Stay On It.

Life Is A Journey, A Step Towards Many Steps.

My Confessions -
When you have seen all,
that is what happens to you,
Life becomes Show Case Of Uniqueness, And Thoughts only...

Once Again Back to square 1
this is the square i need to break
You see the injustice and unfairness
all around you Is it Nature ?
or Circumstance that ultimately
dictates who we are?
What type of person we develop into?

I think I am officially in isolation
with 3 new holes in my head
the Brutal thoughts are
hoardings on my mind always
it seems a lil complicated vn
these combined forces of the
Secret Servicework against you collectively.

Theses flaming habbits
would never end
I have always been asking myself
to extend my Silence
and prolong the my absence to them
Perhaps my presence will
again lead to my absence
so dont worry so don't get anxious

I am jus waiting, waiting, waiting
as time tick-tocks with painful seconds
that I can't help but count,
and can't bear the
length of each one
so i think i waste moretime then anyone else
I might breakdown
think its necessary to medicate
i am not sleeping cant stay awake !!!!

Again My Incompetanance

Make mistakes Ha.-ha

2005-08-24T06:30:00.000-07:00

Inculcated in me is the
fear of making MISTAKES
ITS NOT AN ILL THOUGHT
it is not fantasy but reality
Make mistakes Ha.-Ha

Its all about me and my Complex,
which I have been searching for all alone ......
Its all about me on a blind road,
Sightless person
I find myself Crying for Attention
Dig my self a littlea 21 year old guy
swallows his pride for another day
I think I am going where there is cold
and I am shiviring life have Jaded me weakened my Spirits

I have lived on Drugs,and Depression
only it gives Dullness and insensibility
to my mind, it does so good to me
i have lived Depression
and have never been able
to come out of it
I have seen the end of the rays in my life
all people purposely give into Depression,
as i did the I am heavily involved with Marijuana
all i Deal is Anxiety, Anger,
Depression, Boredom, and YOU
a few minutes of inhaling of this smoke
even if i have many like you
When i am intoxicated i have a Dry Mouth,
Rapid Heartbeat, some loss of coordination
with my Senses raises my Blood Pressure
Slightly and then it fades slowly and firmly
it helps me loose my Motive
I go rekless I swallow my Pride for another Day
With this Highly addictive stimulant
my head is so high and chest is so tight,
the stomach ties its nots
and then the my dark room starts to spin

enjoy cocaine die always
every single minute with fear

I do not accomplish whatI have,
I hate to advocate drugs, alcohol, violence, or insanityto anyone,
But they've always worked for me.
Time is never wasted when you're wasted all the timeI am a real proof that God loves Me
The depth and hollowness
which he has given me is
increasing every single day
I live its not a backward thought thats what happen vn

a regular blank mind speaks...

Call me loony,
Call me Incompetant Critic